I am very conflicted about whether I should trust him again.
I met this guy on a dating app and we hit off quite well. We really enjoy each other’s company and he seems to really care about me. After dating for around 4 months, he asked me to be his gf. However, i am not sure of my feelings for him, not because I don’t like him but because it is moving too fast.
I told him not yet and he was quite annoyed. After asking for a few more times, he stopped. But we still go out quite frequently.
One day, to my horror, when he was showing me something on his phone, I saw, on the notification bar, a girl name with some heart shaped emoji. I asked him who is that and he said it’s just a friend. I was not convinced but I try not to think too much about it.
The following week, my friend told me she saw him and a girl at orchard road. She describes them behaving like a couple and I am sure there is something going on. I went to confront him about it and instead of apologizing for seeing another person, he blamed me for taking too long to decide if I want him. I was speechless and I told him I don’t want to see him anymore.
I cried myself to sleep that night, a part of me wondered if my hesitation has caused him to cheat. But another part of me felt that if he really loved me, he would never have done that. He should have waited a bit more for me to be ready. But I was so confused and I felt so worthless because I can be so easily replaced.
3 days later, he texted me to apologized about his words and actions. He invited me to the place where we had our first date and he told me I am the only one he loves and when he went out with the other girl, he was testing if he can have that same special feeling towards her. But he didn’t so, he ended things with her because he realized I am the one. He told me I hurt him when I did not agree to become his gf.
The date ended off quite well and I felt so happy that he is mine again. However, I am not sure if he can be trusted, but at the same time I don’t want to lose him again.
I am very conflicted and I hope I can get some advice.