I am writing this because I am honestly the biggest idiot on this island. My previous BF was the definition of a “good guy.” He’s a bit nerdy, makes decent money, and the most important thing? He actually had our entire future planned out. I’m talking about a proper timeline from the wedding, the honeymoon destination, the BTO application, down to how many kids we should have and how to save for their university fund. On paper, everything was perfect.
But I was toxic and forever not happy. I thought, “Wah, everything is good except one thing—he is so boring.” Boring on dates because we always go to the same few places, and honestly, even more boring in the bedroom. It felt like standard operating procedure, like filling up a Form A from some government agency.
So what did I do? I threw it all away. I broke up with him and ended up with what many Singaporeans will consider an Ah Beng. Yes, people around me judged me for changing to a new BF so fast, but at that time I didn’t care lah. I jumped so fast because he was just so fun. Really funny, always knew how to make me laugh, and every date felt like an adventure.
But guess what? He only got fun. Every other thing, don’t have. No savings, no career drive, no future. Always want to borrow money from me because he say his “cash flow got issue.” Then I found out he actually gambles online and goes to the jackpot room constantly. The excitement wore off in two months, replaced by pure stress and anxiety.
I really, really regret not appreciating what I had before. Out of desperation, I actually messaged my ex, swallowed my pride, and asked him to take me back. The moment I sent the message? Instant block. No reply, just straight up blocked on WhatsApp, Telegram, and IG.
Today, sitting alone at the void deck crying, I finally truly understand the Chinese phrase 知足 (zhī zú)—to be content with what you have. I had a stable, loving future in the palm of my hands and I traded it for temporary entertainment. Now I have nothing. To anyone out there thinking the grass is greener on the other side: it’s not. Appreciate your boring, stable partner before you end up like me.