Local actress Kate Pang opened up about her postpartum depression in a lengthy Facebook post.
The 37-year-old mother of two, wrote:
Having children is a very happy thing, but there are also many tears that others can’t see.
I remember when I just gave birth to Aden, in order to save money, I didn’t hire a confinement nanny and I lived at my sister’s house. Andy was filming in Malaysia.
Every day I was in confinement, It was very painful, because Aden will cry and drink milk after waiting for more than an hour, but I didn’t have much milk at all. Every time I feed, I have to feed him for 40 minutes. When he fell asleep, he would take a breath, eat something, and when he was about to rest, he woke up again.
Sleeping for 2 hours in a row is almost impossible for me. The only time I could get a good rest were those three days when aden was hospitalized with jaundice. But as soon as he was discharged from the hospital, my milk was not enough for him to drink. Not only was I unable to squeeze enough milk, but the nipples cracked and bled. Every time I breastfed and bathed, I was full of fear. People who have not cracked their nipples really cannot understand the pain and hemorrhoids i sustained during childbirth, I never had a day to sit and eat.
I remember one day in the middle of the night, Aden was crying again, why did he cry? I don’t know, I’m really exhausted, I only remember that a picture suddenly appeared in my mind, which was me throwing aden against the wall, and it would be all over. I actually wanted to kill my child.
then i screamed and My sister rushed out of the room and asked me what was wrong. I broke down and said that I really couldn’t stand it anymore. My sister quickly took the child away and coaxed the crying Aden, etc. I was alone in the room, crying and wondering what happened to me. How could my life be so uncontrollable.
I was like this for a month, and with my sister’s support at the time, and I went searching the Internet, gathering information from other mothers who were suffering from postpartum depression, and asking for help from the Breast Milk groups. Finally, I was able to breastfeed smoothly, and I started to be more able to control the child. Work, rest and emotions, I could see the light at the end of the tunnel.
This is just a snippet into the life of parenting. I have managed to get to the other side, but I believe that many mothers are still in the abyss of pain, and some mothers cannot walk through it. This is the result we least want to see.
Please pay attention to postpartum depression. Please care about every mother around you. Not every mother will scream for help like I did.
I sincerely pray that every mother can enjoy the happiness brought by their children.
Let’s work hard together 💪🏻! We can walk through!