Tired of being hit in my face during sex
My fiancé keeps smacking in my face when we “have fun” in bed. It’s more firm than forceful but it hurts. Even though I expect it atp it’s jarring. I fall asleep with my face aching.
There’s other things he does that I don’t like. He holds my nose sometimes when I go down on him, so it’s extremely hard to breathe.
Sometimes he also hits my thighs, chest and butt. My skin gets so red. He can be too rough tugging my “girls” too.
I want intimacy and I want to be close to him. But I realized I avoid even looking him in the eyes. I cry a little every time we sleep together.
If he thinks I’m getting too upset he will pause and kiss me but then he keeps going.
I don’t know if he understands how I feel. I struggle to speak up for myself. Not because he scares me but because I want to be agreeable. I know he knows what I like because he can do that too.
We are engaged and already have a child together so I plan to spend my life with him. But I don’t want to do this anymore. It feels weird to write this but it’s too private to talk about in real life.