I got cheated on by my girlfriend of 4 years with a one night stand.
She ended up getting pregnant, and i thought it was mine until she confessed everything. She confessed one night while we were just cuddling, i have my suspicions but i guess she couldn’t resist the guilt. She started begging and telling me that she cut him off and everything, you know the drill.
It destroyed me but she only told me a couple days later that the baby wasnt mine. Thats when i lost it. She started begging and crying again and after days of her just trying to keep me to stay with her i told her that i would stay at only one condition.
The condition was that she would have to get an abortion.
She agreed and went thru all the steps to get it. After everything was finished i told her that i never intended to stay and that i made her go thru an abortion only to get my revenge after everything she made me go thru and that she deserved every bit of pain that comes into her life.
i kept insulting her for hours even on private stuff that only i knew. after that i told her to get out or i would call the police. i will never forget the face that she made. in that moment it made me feel good but only now i realized how f up it was. its been months since i last saw her and somethimes i get so guilty that my body freezes, my stomach hurts and start sweating and most time even crying.
all i know is she went to live back with her parents. and since we have mutual friends sometimes i ask how she is doing. but they just give me a look and mumble something. what should i do? please help
the story is more complex but i tried to keep it as short as possible.