My girlfriend and I have been in a r.s since 2017. We met through Twitter & she told me that I was her twitter crush.
We don’t meet regularly but only when we both have time on the the same day as she’s working in the health care sector & we only meet on her off day.
Our relationship was going really well, we were so comfortable with each other to the point that we even considered swinging once but we didn’t go ahead with it. I graduated in 2018 with my bachelors and I was jobless at that point in time. So since she was working in the health care sector since 2017, she used to buy me meals once in a while.. book hotel room in JB and buy mini gifts for my birthday. I used to refuse for her to spend so much on me since I was financially independent before I started my degree.
I was never used to people paying for my stuffs, but she insisted throughout.
Over time she suddenly started picking stupid fights with me every now and then, I remember that a few days after my graduation, she suddenly comes to tell me that she’s travelling to Thailand with her friend and being a really understanding bf, I told her to have a good time. After a week she came back and I never saw any pics of her friend on her insta, just solo shots of her which someone helped her to click.
In 2019 our fights got worse and we even broke up once, during all these time I had a really bad feeling about her actions. She started dressing up real differently from what was her style, I mean I’m not the type of guy who would stop my woman from wearing what she likes but she never dressed that well when she meets me.
During this mini break she went out to USS and MBS with her friend whom was not in any of her pictures or stories yet again. She even disrespected me publicly on twitter once & her online friend came to defend her and I told him off which she fought with me for.
Later on one day I saw her out with an expat White man, and I tailed them secretly & they went into a hotel when she told me that she was working that day. When I confronted her, she told me that she’s sorry and that she actually enjoys being in a open relationship, which she lied when she said she didn’t want swinging.
She said she finds it hot if I watch her when she’s S-ually engaged with another man & that she’s really into White man. This was in 2020, ever since the relationship has been really good with no problems at all, but I don’t know if I should continue like this. She tells me that White men are superior on bed and that Singaporean & southeast Asian men in general are pathetic on bed, and so she needs the pleasure only a White man can give. She says that most girls in Southeast Asian & Asian countries go for White men because they know that they are superior in nature and bed.
It’s been more than a year since we both had S, all I do is watch her with a White dude, she tells me to please myself while watching if I feel like my S life is dead.
She also forces me to watch “videos” whenever this topic comes up, the White guy she sleeps with don’t even respect her. They make racist remarks to her and me while they are doing her and they tell me White men are superior. I really feel like I should discontinue this relationship, but afraid at the notion that I’m far too damaged to search for a new person even if I spend some time healing by myself.
She told me that so many women in Singapore hook up with White men but they make sure that it’s so secretive to the point that not even their friends can expose them, and that sometimes the friends are in it together with them so she tells me to make a choice on either to be like the vast majority of fools or to at least be better than the rest by knowing that his girl does sleep around with White men expats.
I’m confused.