Me 20F and my boyfriend 21M, we’ve been together for six months and it is considered ‘long distance’ because he is currently serving the nation and we do not get to meet each other very often.
The last time we met was two weeks ago. We went together for a staycation in a hotel in town.
One thing led to another, he taught me how to kiss, make out and then we started feeling each other to the point where I let him in without protection (he’s my first bf and I was still a virgin).
It was two strokes, half way in, because it was my first time and I could not go further beyond my comfort range, my consciousness came back after that 2 seconds and told him to take it out, to which he was very gentle and respectful about.
I asked him how he felt and he said that he didn’t feel any wetness or his ‘juice’ coming out.
All this happened on the 15th day of my cycle, my cycle has never been off and I have been really healthy and fertile. 8 hours after that, he brought me to get a morning after pill because I told him I was scared. I took it after reading through all the side-effects and what not.
For the rest of the staycay we did it once more protected.
Fast forward to today, I should be having my period but it has not come. I am concerned and scared. All thoughts and worst case scenarios are swarming at me.
Yes it’s only the first supposed day but my nerves have been so tightly wound up I’m really starting to lose sense.
My boyfriend has been sweet about it, he has had a bit more experiences with doing it as he has had girlfriends before.
When I raised to him my concerns, he’d validate it but also try to calm me down by saying conception would not be so easy because it was only ‘two and a half strokes’.
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