I cheated 6 years ago on my current boyfriend. I’m going to tell him.
My (26f) bf (28m) and I met in school 10 years ago, we got together pretty fast and been exclusive ever since. He was my first love and first intimate partner.
Every relationship has their flaws as did ours… The first 5 years were hard and he wanted more space in the relationship as I did.
One time after my evening shift I met a colleague and an old classmate of my boyfriend and a friend of my colleague at a bar and I would go out for a bit with them and bring those drunkheads home.
Then when we got to the place of my colleague the friend went outside because he was sick and the colleague and I started talking.
Then he started to kiss me. My bf and I barely kissed back then because we just weren’t good at it and this felt good.
I shouldn’t have done it but I let him. Then he wanted more, and he kept taking his man part out and I kept saying no, but he trying and trying and pushing me on the couch and kept talking me into it and i gave in.
I know that as soon as he wasn’t on top of me I should’ve run, I didn’t, I let it happen. As soon as I got to my bf parents house (we still lived at our parents) I took a shower and crawled into bed with him.
I’ve never told him about this because he said: “when one of us cheats it’s over) I didn’t feel guilty either, and that wasn’t the best feeling. I got over it and never told anyone.
My boyfriend and I got engaged a couple of months ago and are planning our wedding.
I don’t want to live with this anymore, I need to tell him and give him the choice of breaking up. It breaks my heart in a million pieces and it’s hard knowing that it might all be over, but I am very well aware that it is waaay too late to feel sorry for myself.