I’m releasing you from my prison
8 months has since passed. There is not a day that I have ever stopped thinking about you. People say time will heal and I had since then trying to heal myself from the pain you’ve caused and it doesn’t hurt so much anymore.
It is something that only I myself can save myself from now because my friends have told me multiple times to forget about you. We were friends first to lovers to strangers who are now ‘friends’ where I was being ignored on purpose.
Texts being ignored. Wishes being ignored.
Questions being ignored. Being unfriended and unfollowed on social media. Maybe you were a jerk for doing this and yes, I also know you did the same thing to your other previous flings. I also know how many flings you had previously. What is on the surface is not indicative of how you are as a character. I’ve investigated it myself and you don’t know how much I know.
Maybe this is the way you solve all the problems because you had a new one whom you told me you were serious about when you said you can’t do commitment. Yes, this is the bullshit that you told me when you ‘took’ everything from me suddenly after you found another.
Most probably she gave you things that I couldn’t. Maybe it’s just fun for you to do that. I remembered sending you that final letter and gift which I hope could mend things but broken things are meant to stay broken and I can’t do this by myself anymore. It was my last chance to you but you treated it as a joke. Sometimes, no closure is the answer to everything.
I don’t hate you for what you did but I am releasing you from my prison because I don’t want it to haunt me anymore. Because I want to move on.
Goodbye, S. I always wish you well no matter where you are. I don’t know how you are now because you won’t reply to my messages anymore but I hope you have passed your first exam.