My dad has been sleeping with my mom’s sister. And I’ve been keeping it from her for 9 years.
my mom and dad’s relationship was already very strained this wasn’t the first time he cheated. He had cheated on her previously with a mutual friend of her’s and I saw how much that broke her. She was crying constantly.
But she stayed strong for me and never cried in front of me. At this time they were having one of their little fights so my mom had left to my grandmas house and told me dad to tell her when I got home so she could come and get me. At this time I was about 8 years old.
I walked home, everything seemed normal, went to my bedroom and saw my dad on top of my mom’s sister. I don’t think it registered in my 8 year old brain that what my dad was doing was wrong, My dad told me that he was “helping her”. And of course naive and stupid I believed him and never told my mom.
They contained this affair and as their affair was continued my dad and my mom started getting better. I didn’t realize what my dad was doing was wrong until I caught him and her doing it again this time in the living room while my mom was sleeping.
I felt sick like genuinely i wanted cry i felt and still feel so guilty till this day. When I confronted my dad he told me that it was my fault he was cheating. I remember how much i cried when he told me that. I started distancing myself from my mom because I felt so guilty. She obviously noticed and tried to get closer with me but I refused,
I started growing a hatred for my dad. Seeing my mom kiss him made me sick. Everytime I would build up the courage to tell her i would get afraid like a coward. My dad and my mom are better now and don’t argue as much if not at all, but I’m sure my dad is still having an affair with her sister he’s just not as open about it now that I’m older.
I love my mom more than anything and anybody in this world and yet i couldn’t and still can’t build up the courage to tell her.