I’m a girl who has excessive amounts of unethical thoughts
I would like to start off by mentioning that at this stage, I have a good life. I’m a pretty attractive women (big chest-small waist-wide hips), young, many friends, many men in the past/current who are romantically interested in me
I’m educated and working towards a high level degree alongside with achieving many other things. On paper I am probably the perfect candidate for a long term girlfriend.
However, I have drawn myself away form any relationships due to the amount of unethical fantasies I have.
My biggest fantasy is probably an individual blinding me, deafening me and removing my voice box then proceed to surgically remove my arms & limbs. Enabling me to be dependent on them and allowing the individual to do whatever they wish to me.
Another fantasy I have is being in a relationship where he has full control, not just within the bedroom. Including my diet, my thoughts, my actions, my appearance, attitude, limiting my social interactions, hurting me, etc.
I have regular thoughts of being restrained and simply hit like a punching bag until I vomit blood.
Another one could be keeping me in a cage for eternity, never letting me leave or interact with anyone else, giving them full control and dependency.
The final one could be sedating me (at any given moment they please) until I black out then proceed to use my body.
Although I have tried a lot of my fantasies out and even had a master-slave relationship before, it wasn’t enough. I need constant 24 hours of control and satisfy me. I have no interest in roleplay.