(20f) he left (20m) right after we fked
hey, i just need more input on a situation that happened to me 2 weeks ago.
so i was on a work trip for 1 month and i was living with new people, all my colleagues. we all discovered and got to know each other during that trip as neither of us knew anyone.
as weeks passed i became really good friends with a guy. He became my confidant, the person i would always laugh with, etc… a nice friendship.
However towards the end of my stay, he started making jokes about us showering together or sleeping in the same bed. he was an attractive guy and sometimes i would be attracted by him.
Fast forward to my last night on the trip, we both were back from the club, he was drunk and i was just tipsy, and around 7 AM we went to my room and we fk.
It was more him using my body as a toy, something for him to empty his balls in but i didn’t mind on the spot. Then after he finished in my mouth, he said “well, that was your departure gift. That was good.”
Then he said he was still drunk, put back his clothes and dapped me. he said he couldn’t stay to sleep with me because he didn’t want the others to know (which i agree, we didn’t want our roommates to know), and then he left.
on the spot that didn’t bother me, as i needed some time to processed that just fked my best friend on the trip.
But now, i start to think it was kinda wrong to leave like this. i feel like in a moment like this, some aftercare can’t hurt me?
especially bc i was more vulnerable because it was a friend. so there’s something to unpack lol. i wonder what he thinks of me. was it just something to empty out his balls, did he care about me but just didn’t wanna get caught?
i have so many questions and i’m trynna clear my head.