Is it normal to feel sad when you aren’t included by people whom you think are your friends?
I am an introvert and i have never opened myself up to anyone. I used to have a group of friends who i hung out with in school but in that group, i would only interact with them once in awhile.
I used to be awkward as well but most of the time i could vibe with them and sometimes they would try to include me into conversatioms by diverting attention to me.
Occasionally went out with them (which was a huge thing as an introvert) but i would never be the life of the party and i think i was kind of just there, absorbing the energy from the party.
Which is why, after the 2 times i was invited to hang out, i was never asked again. I would still hang out with them in school and nobody else.
For many years since, they would celebrate each other’s birthdays, plan events and etc and i had just been forgotten.
I would see it on social media and feel really sad about it. There isnt really much i can do other than just let it be but i never found another group of friends to hang out with since as i am very introverted.
So seeing them all still together even after so many years since graduating still hurts me alot. I have tried reaching out to them personally to talk about things and tried to invite them to hang out but i would get short uninterested replies.
I think i am supposed to move on but i am not sure of how to do it, i deleted my social media accounts for about 3 years and recently came back to see those posts again which again reignited the pain.
I dont know what to do honestly.