A boyfriend who probably doesn’t love me
I have been my boyfriend for 6 years, spanning across my late 20s and now near-mid-30s. Pretty much my prime time.
I thought we were going to get married because we talked about it and even went through house renovation together.
But recently, I realised that he probably doesn’t love me even though he says he does.
He made a “promise” to my parents that he would ask for marriage within 3-5 years, told me several times that “it’s coming” but obviously it didn’t came.
He lied that he had bought the ring but couldn’t find the right timing because of my “timely questioning” that ruined surprises, when he barely even selected a ring, let alone buying it.
And now he drops the bomb that he doesn’t feel physically attracted to me anymore because we don’t have s- (I abstained from pre-marital s- and I informed him right when he asked me to be gf, told him to think carefully before committing).
He thinks that while everything between a couple is important, so is s-. If the s- is not right, everything else cannot be “perfect”.
So from how I see it, basically he’s saying that no test drive, no consideration of purchase. Even with test drive, no guarantee of purchase.
I feel like I’ve been played for the past 6 years and I’m now in my mid-30s. I feel foolish for loving a guy for so long who actually doesn’t love me.
I’m now way past the prime age and now an old hag.
Will I still be able to find somebody who is willing to love me for who I am, beyond just physical, get married and be happy in this superficial world where only young girls are in demand?
I seriously feel so lost and depressed.