I (22M) broke up with my (21F) Girlfriend over her body count.
Just as the title says, a couple of days ago me and my girlfriend (now ex) of five months were talking at a party and we were both a bit drunk and she started asking me about my past, she knew I’ve only been in 1 relationship before her but what she was really interested in was my history so I jokingly agreed to answer anything as long as she did the same.
Now I’ve only slept with 3 people in my life including her, and I knew that she had also only been in 1 serious relationship before me so I expected her answer to be about the same, but she admitted that she had slept with 24 people before me. I thought she was joking but she explained in greater detail and it was clear she was 100% serious. At that point I wasn’t in the mood for any more partying so I headed home for the night.
I couldn’t sleep thinking about it and I can’t really explain why it bothers me so much but I knew this was something I wasn’t getting over so when she woke up I went to her apartment and broke up with her, she started breaking down and asking me to explain why. I really didn’t want to tell her but she kept asking for an explanation and I thought it would be unfair to not tell her so I told her and she started breaking down even more and apologizing to me, which made me feel super guilty. I kept telling her she didn’t have to apologize to me as she didn’t do anything wrong and she asked me why I was I was breaking up with her then and I honestly didn’t know what to answer.
Eventually she calmed down and I headed home but she’s been bombarding me with messages still apologizing and telling me that if she could turn back time she would have never touched any of those guys and that she regrets it.
I believe I’m justified in leaving her since I know that this isn’t something I can get over and that I’ll never see her the same but I still feel super guilty about it all especially since I can’t really explain why it bothers me so much. I wish I just didn’t care about it all so we could’ve just kept being happy together, but 25 people…
I just don’t know what to do, I feel really guilty for feeling this way and even more because I know she’s suffering for something she can’t change now.
I’m also checking in on her to make sure she’s okay and trying to comfort her the best I can but now I’m thinking that maybe it’s cruel of me to do that because it’ll make it harder for her on the long run and that maybe it’s better for her if I stay more distant, I’m at a loss as to what to do or if it was fair for me to break up with her over this. I just wanted to rant about my situation somewhere since I don’t really have anyone else to talk to about this and this is all I could think of. Any input is appreciated.