I couldn’t perform during a hookup
I’m leaving what should have been a successful hookup’s house this morning, but instead of feeling alright, all I feel is intense shame and embarrassment.
Met up with a girl I matched with on a dating app for a coffee, things were going good so we decided to go to see a movie.
She was very touchy and all over me during the movie and invited me back to her place. Everything down there was working alright during the movie so I was like alright yeah, sounds good.
We get back and it just doesn’t work. She said she understood, she just liked making out with me so we did that for like 2 hours.
Periodically I would get hard and think “alright cool yes” and then she’d try to do something but then I’d focus on it to much and it would instantly die.
This used to happen to me in my late teens like but I thought I was over it. I’m a couple months out of a LTR w my ex so I figured a casual hookup would help but I just feel like utter crap.
This even happened the first time I met my ex but I got comfortable w them the second or third time I saw them and it never really happened again so I just assumed it wouldn’t happen now.
It was late at the girls house and I was like 45 min from my house so I just slept over. Same crap happened in the morning wtf. I hate this…