HUSBAND WANTS WIFE TO SCREAM & CRY WHEN THEY DO IT “BACKDOOR” IN BED

Me (26f) and my husband (33m) have been married for a little over a year. Prior to getting married we lived together for 6 years.

As soon as we got married my husband’s whole personality changed. He went from someone who was caring and supportive to someone who just wanted to control me.

The worst thing about him is his fantasies. He’s said to me I don’t know how many times in the last year that I’m not enough for him. This is why:

1. He wants me to sleep around with other men while he watches, which i outrightly rejected.
2. He insists on me doing ana| constantly and then fights with me because I won’t cry during it. I enjoy it sometimes and other times it’s just uncomfortable or annoying. He says that all of his exes have screamed and cried during it so I should too. (I’ve actually cut an onion and kept it hidden under my breast to force myself to cry so he won’t argue with me).
3. He wants me to pretend to get raped while he watches because he wants me to prove my love for him.

After finding out all of this about him I feel like I married a complete stranger and a psychopath. I do not love him anymore.

I can’t file for divorce because I do not have an income since he won’t allow me to work. I have no family that will take me in. I’m really stuck.