i cried as a man today
Today i cried as a man.
I was told by my wife to buy bread today, then i check my wallet i only got 2 ringgit. Check my account i got 10 ringgit , how to withdraw 10 ringgit man. Gaji still lambat, how to buy food now , i’m screwed.
Then when lunchtime, my friend ask me to buy him a drink, gave me 4 ringgit. Shit, if i add this to my 2 ringgit , can buy bread now.
Went to the kedai, got myself a bread , cost me 5 ringgit, now i got 1 ringgit left. Where to buy air tin for 1 ringgit.
On my way back to office, my lampu minyak dashboard start to menyala, i said now this, oh my. Where to find duit minyak now, if i dont get paid by tomorrow, i’m fkced.
I enter office, friend ask , where his drink. I don’t know how to react, i just said sorry then i went to the bathroom and cried.
I cried while saying “mak, i’m susah right now, i’m sorry”. Damn man, i hit rock bottom, just to buy bread also struggle.
Went to see my friend back, just told him i lost his money, will ganti tomorrow. I don’t know what went wrong with my life, i never imagined that one day i will struggle so hard just to buy bread.
I’m not asking for donation , i just needed to vent this out, like how can i tell my wife i can’t even afford a bread, i have failed as a husband to provide, you know what im saying.