I need to confess…
I met my wife 5 years back ago, when we were about to graduate. The first time I saw her, I told to myself “She’s the girl I want to marry. She’s the girl I want by my side. She’s the girl I want to protect.” But she was taken at that time.
A part of me felt so lost and wanted her so badly. A part of me felt I shouldn’t disturb her and I should move on. I couldn’t. So I stalked all her social media, be friends with her friends and got introduced as a “mutual friend”. When we officially met for the first time, things were already not looking good between she and her boyfriend at the time. I took my chance to fill his spot and constantly gave her my support, my love. And eventually, she fell in love with as well. She decided to break it off with her then-boyfriend, although she didn’t know I knew everything about her prior beforehand thus I was able to be the perfect listener for her.
As we got together and with marriage coming into my mind but she was still not ready, I did a bold decision. I babytrapped her on purpose as I thought, “with our kid, she will be with me forever. She will never leave me and she HAS TO marry me”. In the end she was furious when she got pregnant, but quickly let go of the issue as she thought we are both responsible.
Flashback to now looking at our 3 years old daughter and her, she’s still the same girl I want to take care for the rest of my life. Although we are financially stable and have a happy family right now while even waiting for our BTO, I feel so extremely guilty. I felt she will hate me, if she knew what really happened. I know I will probably take this secret to my grave, although I will have to carry this guilt for the rest of my life.
I’m sorry, but I love you too much. I know I was selfish, but I will spend the rest of my life making up to you.