I cannot stand being alone. It is a feeling of emptiness that I cannot shake, no matter how hard I try. I hate it. I hate the loneliness and the isolation, and so I do whatever I can to avoid it.
I have found a way to do that: going out to siam dius every day.
Always asks my friends out to join me even if I have to pay
My friends know that I hate being alone, so most of them are always willing to join me when they have the spare cash.
Sometimes at certain periods of the month before all their salaries come in, they would not want to join me because they do not have spare cash but I would always just ask them to come along and offer to pay for the bill.
To me, it is just a small price to pay instead of staying at home and being lonely.
We go many different siam dius and just enjoy ourselves. I have bottle balances in almost every siam diu in Singapore.
I love the energy and the atmosphere of the music, and I love being around my friends. We talk, laugh, flirt a little with the Siam bu who comes and entertain us and just have a good time. It helps me to forget my loneliness and just enjoy the moment.
When I’m not out with my friends, I try to stay busy and distracted. I watch movies and play video games. Anything to keep my mind occupied and away from the emptiness. I also try to surround myself with people, even if it’s just for a short amount of time.
I’ll chat with almost anyone and try to jio more people out for the next siam diu adventure, anything to keep me from being alone.
Just cannot be alone
To me, nothing can replace the feeling of being around people. That is why I go siam diu every day. It is a place where I can be surrounded by people and just enjoy the music and the company. It is a place where I can forget about my loneliness and just be happy.
I know that loneliness is a part of life and that it is something that I will always have to deal with. But going to siam diu every day has helped me to cope with it.
It has given me a way to fight the emptiness and just enjoy being around people.