To the people having bad days out there, it will end one day!
I was a poly student, now gotten a place in uni(This post will mainly be talking about my difficult times in poly). However, it wasnt an easy journey.
In fact, it’s been a tough 3 years of my life in poly. I had to juggle between work and studies.
As I came from a less privileged family, I didnt want to add any more financial burden to my parents such as asking for living fee. Hence, I had to work almost everyday during my school holiday just to earn myself some living fee. (believe me, student part time jobs will make you feel like the lowest form of living on earth). Both of my parents does not have a degree, not even a government diploma, so i know how difficult life can be without having a good education in Singapore.
All I have in my mind is to make it into a local uni(NUS/NTU) to pursue my passion and make my parents proud. Due to these, I had to sacrifice most of my social life on work and studies. (life with just mugging and working can be demoralising sometimes).
Just when i thought my poly life is smooth sailing with everything well planned, tragedy happened. At poly year 2, my dad was diagnosed with cancer. This means that the breadwinner of the family is down, my family might not have a stable income for a long period of time…
Due to this, my mom was extra stressed and had to work 2 jobs per day sometimes. Thankfully, he got the tumor removed and everything is fine. Just when i thought everything is over, my mom got diagnosed with cancer as well at poly year 3. I was having internship and fyp at the point of time.
When i heard the news, i nearly broke down. I have no motivation to study, or even do anything. I thought of giving up in my studies and just go out and work for the family after NS.
I was stressed, feeling miserable and did not know what to do. I did not talk to friends about this as I did not know how to start this convo and i dont want them to pity me or look at me in a different way. I hide everything in my heart. I didnt cry as shit was already messy enough and i cannot show my family that i gonna break down. I took weeks to get myself together again, and continued to pushed on as this is the only thing that i can do.
Thankfully, my parents are getting better and recovering. I managed to graduate with a diploma with merit, and secure a spot in my dream uni. Even better, I managed to get a bonded scholarship to fund my uni and secure a job in advance. Life is a mix of sweet and bitter, and this is part of growing up.
What I want to share with everyone is that no matter what you are going through now, dont give up. The rainy days will be over!