My father and I have always had a strained relationship. As I grew older, I noticed that he was often away from home, and when he was around, he was distant and uninterested in me.
I always felt like I was missing out on having a real father-son relationship, and although I tried to ignore it, I was angry and hurt.
He was always sleeping around, back when I was younger
When I was a teenager, I started to feel especially distant from my father. I noticed that he was often coming home late and that he was often in the company of other women.
I wanted to confront him about it, but I was afraid of his reaction.
Decided to use this against him
Fast forward to a few years ago when he got older and noticed I always had different women over and chided me for it. That was when I finally mustered up the courage to confront my dad about his behavior.
I told him that I had noticed he was sleeping around and that I had picked up on his behavior and that it had made me become promiscuous like him.
My father was speechless and seemed to be in shock. He remained quiet for what felt like an eternity until he finally spoke.
He told me that he was sorry for how his behavior had affected me and that he wished he had been a better father. He then said that I needed to stop sleeping around and that he would help me get my life back on track.
I was relieved that my father was finally trying to mend our relationship and that he was willing to help me, but at the same time, I was still angry with him.
I wanted to believe that he had changed and that he was going to be the father that I had always wanted, but I couldn’t help but feel like I had been lied to.
Now, after all this time, I still can’t bring myself to trust my father. I don’t know if he has actually changed or not, and I can’t help but feel like I was the one who paid the price for his actions.