All I want is for someone, anyone, to look at me and tell me that I am enough, as I am – and mean it.
I did well throughout school, work, have a good job and would be considered reasonably successful by external observations/standards, but I’ve never felt like I have been of any significance to anyone.
There’s always this feeling of needing to be able to do more, be more useful, find more ways that I can be helpful to those around me.
Which I do, and do get appreciated for, but I still feel like all that is just using talent to cover up that I don’t matter.
Yet there’s so many people around me who seem to have families and partners that embrace them for who they are, not what they do.
They may not be as professionally successful as me, but I yearn for what they have And it feels like there’s something wrong with me, like some basic part of being human is missing in me.
I just feel like no matter what I achieve and how high I climb, I’ll never be enough as a person. Something is letting everyone else shine, but why don’t I have it?
Sorry for the rant. I don’t even know what solution I am looking for by posting here. Thank you for reading.
Netizen’s comments
The biggest mistake most people made is thinking that achievements define happiness.That’s so wrong.
Most people achieve alot, but still feels empty inside. Some have big houses, but they don’t have a home.
Some have king size beds, but they don’t have a good night sleep.True happiness is wanting less and appreciate more.
As for you, the most important person that you need appreciation from is yourself. If you don’t even appreciate yourself, no one else matters.
And if you still think you are not good enough despite your achievements, I challenge you to go to a hospice for children and ask yourself this: Why are they so cheerful even though they know they don’t have much time left.