Im 16 this year, So yeah long story short caught my mom after I was at friends house I was supposed to stay the night but came home because I forgot something (dad was working on new years) and mom was kissing a guy on the couch who I knew he was a colleague of moms.
I never was the angry type but I remember just yelling at her and even threw the damn wine bottle she had on the table into the wall and called her all kinds of things.
The colleague who I had known since I was kid tried to calm me down, but I just ran up to my room locked the door and called dad.
Dad called my uncle (his big brother) and he came and picked me up and stayed with him until dad came back, he sometimes has to travel for a couple of days maybe once or twice every year.
I still have not really talked with mom I just get so angry when I see her and honestly after the shit I called her I think she is afraid to even speak to me.
Mom just seems like a wreck and dad is considering divorce but Dad has agreed to counseling first.
I am seeing a shrink before anyone asks but I after going there for almost six months now I still just go home angry and just feel so angry everytime I see mom, it’s easier to pretend she does not exist at all.
Like I said we hardly talk anymore and I am afraid of saying something even more stupid if I have the conversation.
Christmas this year I quickly finished dinner had no interest in presents or any of that christmas stuff.
Dad asked me to try to have regular christmas and I was trying but sitting at the dinner table with our family pissed with my uncle putting his hand on my shoulder once in awhile to just calm me down.
He must have seen how pissed I was and realized I could explode at any moment but I remained polite and thanked my grandparents for the presents, but I just said I was tired and went to my room early.
It just felt so fake to be sitting there having a “normal” christmas with the rest of the family present the only person who realized just how I felt was my uncle.
I don’t know what to do sick of being angry all the time