I married my childhood sweetheart almost 10 years back. We have known each other all our lives (we were neighbours, went to the same school, played together, grew up together, fell in love and have been each other’s first in every possible sense).
In school, we were a group of 6 friends, 4 females, 2 males. In 2016, my son was born, and in 2018, I had my daughter. Everything was going wonderful (in hindsight, almost feels like a dream). My parents wanted to see the grandkids but due to covid, they haven’t been around much. I planned a trip with kids to my parents place. He said that he had official commitments and can’t get out of them.
So I went with the kids without him, but halfway there, my mom said that she is positive for COVID and told me not to come. So I went back home, I found my husband with one of my females friends from our group in school in a compromising position. I caught them and I leave immediately.
I stayed at a hotel, and told him not to call me. He came to the Hotel a day later, and when I asked how long this has been going on, he said that it had been only a few weeks. I asked him the exact date when it happened for the first time, and he stammered. After ALOT of prodding and requests, he confessed that they have been doing it on and off for 5 years. He said that she was extremely vulnerable after the “so called friend’s” husband passaway
After the screaming went on for a while, he said that he feels sorry for whatever he has done. I felt like I couldn’t breathe. He kept begging me to not leave him and that he will mend his ways. And that he loves the kids alot. He doesn’t want our kids to come from a broken home. He says that he loves me alot and can’t imagine his life without me. He is willing to cut all ties with her and even move to a different country if needed.
The “friend” messaged me saying that she never wanted to break our family and that she was extremely lonely and he was emotionally and physically available and it just happened and that they didn’t plan it. She, also, says that she is willing to do whatever I want her to… Feels like my head will explode….
I have been crying inconsolably and my mind cannot function anymore.
I feel like my whole world has been a lie. The birth of my daughter has been a lie. All our holidays, dinners, laughs, special moments.. all of it has been a lie. We had weekend dinners with each other.
She used to babysit my kids, she is their favourite aunt. She has been a part of our family, all the while, she was DOING my husband… I can’t get the image out of my head of them on the sofa. I keep thinking about my children, and then about what a lie my life has been. Who do I talk to? Who do I trust? None of it makes sense anymore.
Open to any suggestions and comments at this stage.