I’ve been struggling a lot recently with feeling like I’m bad at typical feminine hobbies. I’m not good at cooking, sewing, baking, or organizational stuff.
My family and my in laws family are all amazing at this stuff. My mom is a great baker and had sewn clothes for my kids. My MIL is a good cook and makes quilts. My grandmother cooks and makes quilts. My grandmother-in-law cooks, bakes, and alters clothes.
I suck at all of this.
I can follow a basic recipe, but I always mess up something small. I try to make cake from a box mix and somehow fuck something up.
My mom tried to teach me how to sew but I struggled and she got frustrated. I have to try really hard to keep things organized.
I just want to have a useful hobby. When my kids grow up I want them to be able ask me “Hey can you fix this tear or fit of my kids outfit?” But I can’t. I can’t do anything helpful that I can teach my kids. I can’t create anything that could be passed from generation to generation. I feel like it may be some internalized misogyny, but I just feel like a failure as a woman and a stay at home mom.