I propose to my boyfriend, and he said no
We have two children and we live together. Anyways, my boyfriend and I have been together for a LONG time! Marriage has always been a plan of ours.
My boyfriend always made excuses like “we already have kids, we already stay together, what we need to get married for”….
Marriage has always been important to me and I’ve explained to him why (I will not state why here because I don’t want this to turn into a debate because people hate marriage and also because it’s really not anyone’s business of my own personal reasoning for why I want something).
Ok so my boyfriend keeps making more excuses saying it’s not the right time and I decided to just ask him to marry me.
So I did ask him and he freaked out and said “naw naw hell naw don’t do that” and I asked him what is he talking about and he basically felt emasculated because I asked him to marry me and he said when he’s ready he as the man will do it.
He said that me proposing to him made him feel feminine and told me not to do it again.
I feel stupid too. I vented to my friends and family about this and they called me dumb for proposing to a guy and that I should have never done that and apparently that just made me look thirsty af proposing to him and that no real woman or respectable woman takes away a proposal from a man because that’s a man job. SO NOW my self-esteem is in the toilet, and now I am very embarrassed.
I’m still struggling with this I feel like a clown playing house with a man that’ll never marry me. I feel so lied too