[18F] i lost my virginity and it was awful
I really wanted to lose my virginity because I haven’t lost it yet. I was also just very turned on for some reason and just wanted to F anyone already.
So, I make a profile on this listings website and I start chatting with some dudes. I was so desperate to F someone already, that any man who was willing to text me a time, place, and date, I was willing to throw myself at them.
Anywho, I matched with this 30 yr old man and we eventually met up at a hotel. I let him know this was my first time because I didn’t want him to be harsh with me.
He was okay with it and was actually pretty sweet about it. So i get to yadayadayada with my mouth and he’s over here giving me compliments and what not.
I kid you not- the whole time we were doing it, it was just me doing oral… He was inside me for about 5 minutes till he came.
Then he wanted me to finish him off with my mouth afterwards. Dude didn’t even try to touch my chest, play with my vajayjay or even eat it…
My first intercourse experience was just me blowing a man. I don’t know if I’m delusional for thinking that I would be pleasured too or it was my mistake for not being vocal in what I wanted to.
It was just my first time doing something like this so I was just so embarrassed to even say that I wanted to be eaten out down there.
The next day I was still so turned that i had to rub one out myself and noticed that in AV vids, it’s rare to see the woman getting eaten or played with… the majority of videos is just the woman doing oral on the man and getting f-ed. Is it the new norm to just pleasure the man? Wtf happened to pleasuring a woman?
My first experience was just so bad that i’d rather rub one out than have intercourse ever again. Why would i want to go through the hassle when I could get more pleasure in playing with myself?
Is it wrong to ask that we both get something out of it? Idk man, I just feel like the whole thing isn’t worth it.