I met her at my work as she was a new employee so I chatted with her and got to know her. From the beginning, I’ve liked her and I always tried to chat her up and spend more time with her at work.
I obviously respected boundaries and only did it in a friendly way, but I don’t know how it happened but she started to ask me to come to chat with her more and spend more time with her.
While nothing too serious has happened while we’ve been hanging out and chatting for the past few months, she has dropped quite a few hints for me.
It’s like every time she sees me she blushes, she makes little comments about my appearance and my personality, just a bunch of stuff that seems to make her feelings quite obvious.
I’ve been doing the same back when I feel it’s appropriate to let her know how I see her as well and I pay attention to her responses to make sure I’m not overstepping and boundaries.
To me, it just seems like a massive green light to try and establish something before she starts to think that I’m a lost cause that won’t make a move.
For example, she recently asked me if I liked another girl I was chatting with. It seems like if I don’t make my feelings clear, she will start to think that I like someone else or just don’t like her.
However, her life just isn’t very relationship friendly. We chat a lot at work, but her parents are extremely controlling and don’t allow her to spend time with her school friends, so I seriously doubt they’d allow for an older guy to take her to the movies or something.
I don’t know how I should move forward with this relationship as it seems the only time we can see each other is when we’re working.
We’ve been texting lately but I was never a fan of that kind of stuff and I just can’t keep a conversation with her that way.
I think I know the answer, that I need to decide to give up on her or decide to wait, but I just don’t want to close myself off to her and make the decision.
Also for what I feel is the elephant in the room, the age difference of 12 years. Personally, I feel like an insecure guy… there’s no special thing that separates me from her.
That being said it’s still something that concerns me and makes me feel guilty because I’ve always looked down upon age gaps till I had feelings for her, I’ll let others decide what to think and I’ll accept it.
People will judge me, she is 18 I’m 30…