Just need a listening ear
I am a stay at home mum of 3 lovely kids. I have been with my husband for almost 15 yrs. He does spend time with our family. But I feel that sometimes his friends are more important than us, whatever his friends ask him out he would always agree and out he go to drink, he said that he don’t know how to reject people.
Everytime he went out with his friends, I would wait for him at home sometimes till late night as I am used to sleeping with him already. Whatever he comes home, he will start to keep touching me and sometimes became violent by using force. To be honest I am afraid sometimes. When he woke up the next day, he would forget everything and only realise when I told him, he feel guilty and apologise. This has been ongoing for many years.
Now I am coming to 40 and my kids are entering teens age. Sometimes I really feel like just divorce and start a new life alone again. But I really love my kids and I have no savings at all as I am a stay at home mum. I have no one to speak to and only can cry by myself. I really regretted giving up my job previously to choose to be a housewife, is my decision wrong from the start.
I hope I don’t receive harsh comments as I am typing this out in again another same night. I do love my husband, but I really hate when he drinks and get drunk, and I have to cry everytime after he slept.