Cheating Husband wants a smile
When my husband want to be respected yet he continuesly cheats on me not once, twice, thrice, 4 times and more.
He wants me to smile at him the way his girls outside do. How they’re excited to meet him.
I keep forgiving him and then he would say “I saw somewhere that a beautiful woman said that if her husband cheats it’s on her because he will not cheat if his happy at home”.
is it really my fault? Should I just accept him and allow him to continuesly disrespect me? Kissing me when he have lipsticks from another woman? Giving the stuffs I gave him to them?
Him and his different gfs will mock me and talk bad about me and everytime he’s caught he will blame me for everything he did.
I was always there when he needed me even when I’m so upset with him. Maybe I’m at fault as well, I became different when I caught him cheating.
I just want him to geniunely apologize and not do it again. He keep saying he loves me and don’t want to lose me yet he say the same thing with different women.
It’s like an expression now for him, how could I believe him? How could I trust him again when he’s not changing? How long should I forgive when the blame is always with me? How long should I accept that even when he’s with me I can hear the customized ringtone of his gfs?
Of course I’m not saying that I’m good, I say mean stuffs when I’m so hurt but how long should I have to suffer? Today is even my birthday but I was insulted and mocked.