I don’t know why people don’t want me
I’m always told I’m beautiful. I am overweight and pretty alternative in style and body mods and shit but I’ve always been told I’m just thick or curvy, and it doesn’t look bad.
I understand from a health point of view I should lose weight, and I try. but every relationship I have ends in them cheating or mistreating me or dumping me or all of the above.
I know this is terribly vain and shallow but for being so complimented and praised on my looks by lots of people, none of them ever seem to stick around let alone do things like take me on dates or spoil me or even be loyal.
it feels like a punch to the gut every time i see women with their partner who’s just absolutely in love with them. buying them things, holding doors open for them, taking them on trips or to concerts, or even just compliments and small favors or kind words.
I don’t know why everyone I’ve fallen in love with never saw me as worth any of that. more than anything I just want to be loved gently and strongly and it just never seems to happen and I don’t know why.
some say it could be the mental health symptoms but I regularly see other women go into hysterics over things I didn’t even know were an issue, and say or do things to their partner I couldn’t imagine not feeling terrible for.
I’m so incredibly lonely
Netizens’ comments
- Just a guess, but would you identify as being codependent and or overly clingy ? Are you a doormat for these partners you choose? I suggest seeing a therapist to work out what it is that may be hindering you or influencing your choices in a partner.
- Hey OP! I know someone in a very similar situation. I believe this girl is super gorgeous, smart, and could have anyone she wanted kissing her boots. Not gonna lie, I am a little jealous becuase I can’t pull off the same alt style and commit so hard to the aesthetic (did I mention she is super pretty with and without the heavy eyeliner?)
Anyways, everytime I hear about this girl she is always in a toxic relationship with some manipulating mid-looking scumbag. She has been going to therapy over an eating disorder and recently decided to switch therapists because she has had some major setbacks on her condition.
I am not an expert here, but you might also want to surround yourself with “other” people. You know what I mean? Like, maybe build some new circles. This might also be a self-esteem issue. I have seen first-hand how low self-esteem can lead you down some dark alleyways for a crumb of attention. Once you focus on yourself and let go of the idea of being with someone, someone will come by. I don’t know why, it always happens like that.
Best wishes!