My (30F) boyfriend (30M) of 5 months keeps accusing me of cheating
This morning he woke me up with kisses on my neck, being sweet. He whispers “Look, I get turned on by just laying next to you”. He was hard, we made love.
After I went up to make him breakfast in bed and he looked really happy becaused I put some extra effort into it. After breakfast we got intimate again but after we finish this time, his mood completely shifts.
I asked him if everything was alright and he says “yes, but I guess that’s not completely true”. So I keep asking him what’s wrong, because his voice sounds angry. “I’m not allowed to talk about that”, he says.
I instantly knew he was thinking about me with other guys/cheating. Last weekend he sat on phone and screamed at me until I completely fell apart in tears, and beyond, about cheating. I have never cheated on him. We meet very often and when I’m not with him I sit home studying, playing PC games or hang with my dog. I barely have friends or family. I like it like this, but it’s ironic how he still finds some way to accuse me.
The reason he said he’s not allowed to talk about it is because we both after that agreed to not talk about that again. He apologized sincerely to me and said he trusts I don’t cheat.
He thinks I cheat on him because I lied to him about what I did on New Years. We weren’t dating the last New Years eve. We started dating a month-two:ish after but we talked about the evening some time. Since I am quite a loner I told him I had a friend over, out of embarrassment of the truth. Truth was that I was just on a walk with my dad then went home alone and went to bed. He uses this lie of mine to justify all accusations of cheating that he comes up with.