I have a best friend (20f) thats been with me through hell and back for a long time. She’s my girl. She’s my rock. She’s my writing star. We plan to be famous authors one day.
But last night? All we wanted was to be drunk. We drank. I poured my heart out and began crying and laughing. She held me.
Eventually, she dared me to take a double shot and I slammed them both. I immediately ran to the toilet and threw up. Then proceeded to get in the shower and just lay on the tub floor while she sat on the toilet lid.
She interrupted me mid rant and asked me, “what would you do if I said I wanted to kiss you right now?”
God.
I never stood a chance.
We took it downstairs and dear lord was it amazing. I hated how amazing it was.
Afterwards we proceeded to just laugh and talk and cuddle in the bed together. The next morning (now) it really dawned on me what I just did. Oh my God. That’s supposed to be my best friend.
Why am I gripped with so much anxiety right now?
I want to never mention it again and let it float in the air.
Netizens’ comments
- As much as you want to just pretend it didn’t happen, it did and y’all need to talk about it after you’ve had some time to think it through. It sounds like this friendship is very important to you and worth going through an uncomfortable conversation to figure out where to go from here. It can definitely be confusing to have a friendship turn romantic overnight like that but it doesn’t make it wrong, unless you feel like she took advantage of you.
- Just go with the flow.
If there is chemistry there, explore it and enjoy each other. But also be clear about expectations, boundaries, and overall feelings.
Is it general lust or true love for each other? Can you see yourself living and thriving with this person?
If so, then all the best to ya - You might just have anxiety/guilt because of the hangover. It’s a common feeling after a night of drinking. Wait for it to pass and enjoy yourself!