I spent over $50,000 on only fans after my girlfriend broke up with me
All the conversations we had, all the small quirky messages we would send each other throughout the day, I missed them so much. I felt so lonely as I don’t have anyone else to talk to.
I subbed to an only fans and.. I know there’s no genuine connection.. but my god it felt surreal. I really enjoyed the company she gave me. I didn’t keep track of how much money I spent until now and it totaled over 50k. I don’t regret it though
Edit: I’ve been getting a lot of messages on why my girlfriend broke up with me. And it was simply that I’ve been working too much and having not enough time to spend with her. I was in the office everyday of the week and would work 8-12 hours and I remember clearly of the conversations we would have of it. But at that time, I wanted to pursue my career, my business, and would often brush it off. I know I messed up, I really thought she was the one.
It was a thing I took granted and when she finally ended things, I felt shattered. I’m not gonna tell the “I will change, I will try this, blah blah” story. Everything just felt.. slow or pause still? I don’t know how to explain it, but when I would try to do something, I just couldn’t. I def felt a combination of loneliness and sadness, but also this feeling of can’t do anything? Like a feeling of helpless.
New video games, new TV shows, watches, jewelry, fancy restaurants, I was so disinterested in everything.
This went on for a month, and then I decided to do this only fans thing. All these comments / messages saying to a hooker, I didn’t care for f-ing. I just wanted attention.. intimacy.. someone that I can talk to and help me fill this “void”. And it worked out for me at the end.
I’m doing way better right now, my mental health is good and I’m enjoying things that I wasn’t enjoying and working less hours and enjoying life. I made this post to let out what I’ve been reflecting on, and I’ve been a long time lurker on this sub. To all the people that gave me comforting answers, thank you <3. To those not so friendly, thanks for making me laugh.