Little backstory, I’ve never really had a girlfriend, only a one night stand. Even in that scenario it took a while to get hard but eventually it worked, was a bit awkward though. I also purposely did NOT come for the 4 days before that, just to make sure I am actually “starved”.
So, last week I walked in one of those places in germany (a professional one not a random street girl) and instantly said to her that I was a bit nervous and just talked with her a bit, because normally being honest about that works whenever I’m nervous for things. She was really nice and said it’ll be fine. So I took off my clothes and she started sucking it. Nothing really happened which made me feel like shit. Like, it stayed flacid. There’s a woman blowing me, and it does nothing….
After 20 mins of her trying, it stayed soft but i didn’t care. Money wasn’t an issue for me since I got a bonus and never spent it anyway.
It took long for it to go erect again, and again we tried doggy but It slipped and hurt pp and it went down again (yes I’m that unlucky). Literally trying like that for over an hour but eventually I gave up since it wouldn’t go up anymore, and the one time it did it was for like a minute. I just wish I could have performed more than 3 minutes. She even told me “It’s so weird because it looked like you really wanted to”
I feel ashamed, I even apologized to her but she felt really bad for me. She also said this usually doesn’t happen, and I could tell she really felt bad for just by her look. She kissed my cheek and we waved goodbye.
In one way I’m happy that we at least did it, even for 3 minutes, but I’m so embarrassed that i couldn’t get hard no matter how hard she sucked it. And the rare times I did it refused to stay hard. Like, there’s a beautiful lady right there, even letting me touch her, why can’t it stay hard like it does all the time when nobody is around. Wtf is wrong with me man