Girlfriend [24F] lied to me [24M] about her history
I’m pretty crushed. I was playing a card game with my SO of 1 year and one card involved going through the other players phone notes. I found something that I was never meant to see.
She’s been keeping a list of all of the people she’s slept with, rating them on their bedroom game, list of people she’s dated, list of her crushes, tons of objectifying and crushing stuff to see. It was much more than she made it out to be too (she lied to me).
When I told her about it she insisted she meant to delete it even though it was fully updated. She insisted she wasn’t lying about things that were right in front of me.
She tried to delude me that what we have is special by lying about how many people she’s dated intimately and how far those went.
If she had told me to begin with it would have been easier. She’s actively compared me to exes and past lovers and I feel totally insignificant in the relationship at the moment.
I feel like this is so fake and that she’s hiding from something and projecting her conquests at me when intercourse is clearly just a game to her.
How do people get over this type of thing? I need advice on how to handle this between us because it’s changed how I look at her. I don’t want to sleep with her anymore. I would especially value if someone’s been here or made lists like this before.