When I was in my mid-twenties, I had been in a relationship with my girlfriend for a 4 years. We were deeply in love and had talked about marriage, but something wasn’t quite right. I felt like I was living a lie and that I wasn’t being true to myself.
Men not women
I finally mustered the courage to admit to myself – and to my girlfriend – that I was attracted to men, not women.
It was a difficult and emotional conversation. I was scared and uncertain of her reaction. I was afraid she would be mad and reject me. But she was surprisingly understanding and told me she still loved me and wanted to be with me.
Still, I knew I could not continue living a lie and pretending to be someone I wasn’t. I broke up with her.
My girlfriend was shocked and couldn’t understand why I had done this. She thought I was cheating on her or that I had met someone else. I had to explain to her that I was simply being honest with myself and that I had finally accepted who I was.
It was hard for her to accept, especially since I had kept this part of me secret for so long. I could feel her hurt and anger, and I felt terrible. But I also knew that I had made the right decision for myself.
She insist that I was cheating on her with another girl, I flat-out denied it. It was a guy…
We eventually parted ways amicably and kept in touch for a few years. But it was a painful experience for both of us.
Coming out as gay was one of the most difficult things I’ve ever done. It took me a long time to accept who I was and to be comfortable with it. But I am happy that I finally had the courage to be honest with myself and with my girlfriend.
It was a difficult decision, but I know it was the right one. I am now in a happy and fulfilling relationship with a man and I am thankful for the strength and courage I found to be true to myself.