Parents keep asking me for money
I don’t know where to start but I‘m feeling so angry at my parents. My dad goes months without working, he’s self employed and my mom doesn’t earn much either. Her salary is enough to pay rent but that’s it.
I‘ve been employed since april and I started helping out my parents and it frustrates me that they seem to have enough money to buy cigarettes but never enough money to have enough food in the fridge. I help them out by paying for electric bills, but mostly groceries.
I gave my parents $100 a couple days ago for groceries and a couple days later my mom asked me for money again (100) and yesterday she asked me for money to buy groceries.
And I asked her, where’s the money that I gave you? It’s really pissing me off. She asked me why I have such an attitude.
So anyway. Yesterday I gave in and told my mom, that she could buy the groceries and that I will give her the money. But she wouldn’t speak to me. She just shut the door and cried. She has always asked her mom for money, and now she starts asking me.
This work week has been so difficult for me mentally and I was feeling down so that I had zero energy to buy food myself. I work so much, come back home, fall asleep in my jeans and everything with make up on.
My health problems make this situation even worse. I have eczema all over my legs because of the stress which leaves ugly scars that I need laser treatment for in a couple months.
So anyway, I asked my dad to buy something, I suggested giving him money but all he bought was frozen food, cigarettes and milk
This entire situation is making me so angry, because my parents have always been irresponsible with money since childhood. My dad wouldn’t pay the bills, and we would sit in a dark apartment. This has left me traumatized. I‘m always feeling internally stressed out when it comes to money.
So I don’t know what I‘m supposed to do now. Should i track all expenses and how am I supposed to act in this situation?
I will go grocery shopping myself in the future, no matter how exhausted I am. My parents spend way too much money on groceries and not looking if there’s cheaper alternatives.
I feel so bad for even thinking about investing money into my hobbies. I would LOVE to learn analog photography or buy myself a nice digital camera and attend workshops, learn how to develop film. But it’s impossible since I really need to save up for my own place which I‘m hoping to move into next year.