Recently I worked at a temp job and came to know this guy who is currently studying in upper secondary, which was almost a decade younger than me. I am a female btw. After the job ended, we had a chat over meal at the staff canteen.
He seems like a nice, shy guy. I think we had quite a good chat then, atmosphere wasn’t awkward and the conversation flows well.
During our chat, he asked for my social media account (I think he phrased it across two times) but I did not give him, as then I was thinking since I might not be going there to work again hence probably “pointless” to keep in contact as I am kinda tired of those one-off/drifted friendships, and also I am not that active on social media.
And we departed from there and walked in different directions. Somehow we managed to end up in the same train cabin (the train was pretty crowded), I noticed him but I think he did not see me.
So on my way back home, I suddenly felt bad and regret that I rejected him (in a nice way) for not adding him as friend on my social media.. I mean he at a young age, probably would have mustered all his courage to ask me for it whereas I did not appreciate that.
Also after that I think it would be quite interesting to have such young friend (which can be like a younger brother to me if the friendship goes on) to share about perspective in life etc since huge age gap.
Somehow this regret feeling of losing a potential friend have been going on in my head. I am not sure whether if still able to meet this guy again or anyone who is that young age with good and mature character (based on first impression of him, he seems to be that way).
Maybe if fate allows and we will meet again or the saying – the right people will be in our life? So even if we do not meet again, I shouldn’t be as bothered about it as everyone we meet in life is kinda fated?
Maybe I am thinking too much and that I should not feel so deeply about this and I should just open up and make more new friends? Probably I am feeling this way as I don’t feel the closeness I have with my other friends hence it felt like I have lose a potential new “long-term” friend (I don’t know).
This is just a rant. Anyone who have similar experience, may kindly share your story too. Or any comments or suggestions what I should do or change in my thoughts etc are welcome too!