Ok, so I (20F) have been best friends with this guy (20M) since we were 15. Purely platonic. And when I say best friends, I mean BEST friends.
He likes me more than his male friends and I like him more than my female friends.
Throughout the years, we never did anything more physical than hug on rare occasion and I never got the feeling that he wanted to hook up.
When people at parties or whatever would ask if we’re together, he would say no and that he would never get with me.
At the risk of sounding conceited, I’d say I’m an attractive person, which led me to believe that he just wouldn’t want to ruin our friendship over a hookup and I was fine with that and it didn’t offend me.
Anyway, we got drunk one night alone at my place and started hooking up. He asked to f me and I said no because I had forgotten to take my birth control that night.
Then, a few days later, we f. Then, a couple days later, we f again. That pattern has repeated for a couple months.
Don’t get me wrong, it’s easily the best f-ing of my life, but it’s starting to mess with my head. We hang out every day and cuddle every night and f a few times a week, but the conversation of actually dating has never come up.
He even does all the cutesy things like kisses on the head and play fighting. I’m wondering if he thinks I’d reject him or if he just doesn’t see me as girlfriend material.
This is becoming increasingly difficult though, because I want a boyfriend and have another guy (21M) in my life who could potentially be that person.
Do I just let things play out like they are or do I stop sleeping with someone I love because he won’t ask me out?
Guy #2 and I have also been friends for years, and we have SO much in common and very similar life plans. Guy #1 is someone I love tremendously, but we also have different plans in life. Help, I’m stuck.