We went to a small Christmas gathering with one of his co-workers. I am friends with the wife. She invited us and after asking my husband, texted her that we would be there.
I get nervous meeting new people but I was friendly and upbeat. Smiled and talked to people. We were only there an hour before my husband told me that he was ready to leave.
We said our goodbyes and got in the car. On the way home, we talked. He said of course I know how to socialize..you were just acting all awkward.
I asked him what he meant. He said I do this awkward thing with my arms.(??) Then he called me an awkward weirdo.
I told him to stop it. But he kept it up the whole ride home. I was silently crying..he didn’t know or more likely didn’t care.
I have a hard time making friends. I thought I did okay last night but I wonder if I messed up somehow.
I am alone a lot because of this move. And I haven’t been able to meet people. I’m afraid they won’t like me so I stay home.
When I have a chance to meet someone..I feel like I mess up. Maybe I should just stay home and just be alone.