I used to think I had the perfect relationship. My beautiful girlfriend had recently become a flight attendant and she was so passionate about her job.
She was always so excited to go away on her trips. I was happy for her, and I wanted to support her in any way I could. I would pick her up from the airport every time she returned home, and I would drive her to the airport every time she had to go away for work.
During her trips, she wasn’t being faithful.
I was completely blindsided when I found out. I had no idea that she was cheating on me with different men from all around the world. I felt betrayed. I had been driving her to the airport every day, only for her to go away and sleep with other men.
I was so angry. I was angry at her, for lying and cheating on me. I was angry at myself, for not seeing the signs and not realizing what was going on. I was angry at the world, for allowing this to happen to me. I was in so much pain and anguish that I didn’t know what to do.
I confronted her about it and she initially denied it. But then, she eventually admitted it and apologized profusely. She said she was sorry for hurting me and that she would never do it again. But I didn’t believe her. I knew that she had already done it and that she was probably going to do it again.
I decided to end the relationship. I couldn’t trust her anymore. I couldn’t be with someone who was capable of doing something like this. I knew that I deserved better. I deserved to be with someone who would be faithful and honest.
It has been a few months since I ended the relationship. I still feel the pain of what happened, but I am slowly starting to move on. I am learning to forgive her, though it is not easy. I am also learning to forgive myself for not seeing the signs and not realizing what was going on.
I am also learning to appreciate the small things in life. I am learning to appreciate the moments I shared with her, even if they were eventually tainted by her betrayal. I am learning to appreciate the drives I took her to the airport, even if they were for her to go away and cheat on me.
I am learning to be thankful for the things that I have in life and to be grateful for the experiences I have had. I am learning to be thankful for the lessons that I have learned and to be thankful for the strength I have gained. I am learning to be thankful for every single day, and for all the moments that I still get to experience.
I am learning that life can be unpredictable, and that it can take unexpected turns. I am learning to accept that things don’t always go the way we plan them to, and that sometimes, we have to go through difficult experiences in order to learn and grow. And I am learning to appreciate the journey, no matter how difficult it may be.